ChanomiTalk

さて、今日は全体のサークル活動がお休みなので、5人で冬ライブに向けて練習です。ベルトーン（?）が苦手な私。どうにもコツがつかめず。メンバーさん、ごめんちゃい。

でも、反復練習のおかげでもうちょっとでできる気がする。個人練がんばる！　次合わせたとき、「なんなん？ばっちりやん！！」とみんなで言いたい（笑）

あと一ヶ月ちょい。11/22にむけてがんばるぞーー。来週はとろ家で鍋パーティー。アカペラは信頼関係ですからね、親睦深めますよ。鍋パ楽しくなるといいなぁ〜。しかし…か、片付けなきゃ。

I currently live at home with my mother I know crazy right.  I really feel that paying rent is just throwing away money, you have no benefit for it.  So what I do is I save what I can and try not spend lavishly.  Recently my girlfriend wants me to move out and in with her, which I am really considering.  It will be much more difficult in this economy to find a place and also to get financed.  I am confident that I will be able to move out by march of next year.  I have been looking around and I got to say the fun is in the hunt.  I have some friends that are looking for roommates which gives us some options in looking for a place.  Ultimately I would like to get my own place soon.  I think that I can make that happen within the next few years.  I’m thinking that with gas prices being as high as they are moving into town might just save me some time as well as money.  Oh well we will see!

iraira…　irairaira…　落ち込むし、イライラするし、一体最近のこの沈みようはどうしたんだ。こんなにも気分のムラがある自分、あんま好きじゃない。と思ってたら、なるほど

あれ　と　これ　と　それ　が、原因かなと納得した。そんな日に限って拍車をかけて今日の準夜勤はごった返してるし。そんな時に同期が、「どうにもならんと思ってるやろ。　どうにかなんねん。」
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「な、オレの言った通り、どうにかなったやろ。」　偉そうに。たしかに…ホントその通り。悔しいけど。ビビッて、へこんで、ブーブー言ってた自分の時間と労力が勿体ないと思った。

　以前お伝えした母の畑から大量のさつまいもが届きました。どれもこぶりなのがチョイスされていて、焼き芋専用さつまいもです。今週末あたりに、仁淀川沿いの川原で焼き芋祭りですね。秋、秋、秋です。

ONとOFF。職場ではON。カチ。
OFFになったときのこの無表情がたまらなく虚しい時があります。
挑まないと何にも解決しないんだよ〜。逃げています。

I was working and I saw that I had a request for me.  I love this but it also puts a little unwanted pressure for two reasons.  The first is that I didn’t recognize the name, so I might not remember the party.  I try to remember everyone of my guests but there is just too many.  Secondly there is a little pressure to perform as great as you did the last time.  Sometimes your just so ON that you can do no wrong, then when the guests return the expect you to just perfect again although I try to be everytime it can put a ton of pressure.  To my delight it was my girlfriend trying to surprise me and surprise me she did!  I have told her in past not to come in because I was embarrassed to serve her.  I want her to be impressed with my service but what if she is not?  As the evening went on I could tell she was analyzing my service and judging me.  For me being under the spot light makes me a little tight and for me to perform at my best I need to be loose.  Later that night she told me that I really do a great job and she enjoyed watching me work.  She said that I look so happy doing what I do and look as though I’m having so much fun at work.  I think now she can respect what I do!  Her mother though is really Japanese and thinks only of her daughters well being, to her me being a server is beneath them.  I’m not sure how I will win that battle but I will try!